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Lost.

 Lately, I've been struggling. Some of it is missing my mom. It's amazing that a decade later, it really doesn't feel much easier. She was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, and I honestly believed that if anybody could beat it, it was her. I truly believed that. But she isn't here today, and somehow, it feels like fate betrayed me. One day, I know cancer will seep through my windows and fate will knock on my door. I've already had some precancerous things taken out. At least I know ahead of time.

And yet, it feels so unfair not to have her in this chapter of my life. I need her. And all I can do is just keep moving on.

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